Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Reassurance…

Two amazing things have happened this past week!

1. Last Thursday (July 9th) I felt our baby girl move for the first time!! It was something that I needed to happen so bad and it was such a comforting feeling. Since that is all I know of pregnancies and of being a Mom, that creates a huge bond between me and my kids. I had already 100% bonded with this little gal but that for me, sealed the deal. I think that I cherish the signs of pregnancy and the different experiences because I know how much I love Mac without knowing his earthly presence. The 9 months I had of being pregnant with him are a huge chunk of the memories that I have. I feel like I need to document every kick and every ultrasound in case that is all I have to reflect back on.

Besides all of those points I am also just grateful in general for the chance that I have to be pregnant. I have some amazing women in my life that are not able to have children and I watch their struggles and hear about their feelings when others around them get pregnant and admire them. I don’t know another word- but I think that they are amazing and strong. I love each of them and the kids that have been adopted in to my family and thank them for sharing those experiences with me. I think that I’ve learned the most about what a family really means from them and I don’t think I’ve ever told them that their strength has been huge with getting me through difficult times and scary times.

Right now I can’t think of what is going to happen in the next 20 weeks, or I can’t focus and I turn in to a mess to be honest. I’ve decided that I’m going to take it one step at a time and just be grateful for what I have in the moment. Right now that is a little girl growing up, moving around, and getting strong. And some amazing feelings about loving this little one and loving my family of 4!


2. Look what Josh bought!!! It’s a heart beat monitor that I can use from home. Holy cow, can I be luckier! I have already used it multiple times and it’s already saved some serious panic attacks from happening. It’s such a comforting sound, even when I’m not worried- the heartbeat of a little baby. It doesn’t get any better than that!


22 comments:

Ashley said...

Yay for little kicks! :) And Josh is awesome for getting you that! I'm so happy for you that you have such a great guy. :)

Travis & Kira Evans said...

That is so sweet of Josh. I totaly understand why you would want to. That is awesome! :)

Scott and Amy said...

yeah for you cali i'm so glad you can feel that little one moving!!! that is my favorite part of pregnancy i will have to say. it makes it that much more real! also that is an awesome little monitor!! very sweet of josh to get it for you!! I hope these next 20 weeks go by fast! Love you girl.

HollySteffen said...

i know you dont even know me but i'm SO GLAD you got one!! i was seriously thinking about sending you one.

glad it helps.

Parker's Paradise said...

I'm so happy for you!! Yea Kicks!! Keep them coming! ; )

Janet said...

What a sweet husband you have! Such a thoughtful gift. So happy about the kicking! You go girl!!

Mandy said...

Such a great gift!! That's perfect! Yay for the kicking!!!

Lance, Tiff n Ash said...

What a brilliant investment! I'm so happy for you guys!

KaMi and ZaCk said...

Hey sorry I haven't had the chance to tell you how happy I am for you!! Such great news! and you have the best husband : ) Love You!!!!!!!

Ty and Laura said...

That is so sweet! We are so excited to meet her. She is going to be beautiful! One lucky girl to be coming to you two. Love you guys.

Rob and Susie said...

Cali and Josh-CONGRATS!!!WooWho!I am so excited for you. I have to warn you girls are drama but they are awsome. And one of each...you are blessed. I can't wait to read about your progress with lil sis and to watch her grow up on your blog. Way to go Mac. Take care of her and get her to your mommy and daddy healthy and perfect.

Brousseau Family said...

What a beautiful gift. . . Josh is so amazing and inspired. And yea for feeling movement! It is one of the most hard to describe but incredible things and bonds you can have with your little one. Can't wait to meet her!

Jensen Fam said...

What a thoughtful gift! You are a very normal mom - I think every mom has those moments that they would love to hook up to a baby monitor just to be sure. :) Congratulations!

Anonymous said...

I have to admit, I am very jelous of your baby monitor! That's every mom's dream :)

The Rowe Family said...

So So happy for you!

ryansmom said...

Congratulations! I'm so happy for you and Josh. I will continue to pray that all is well with you and your baby girl.

Matt and Stephanie said...

I know you dont know me but Ive been following your blog. I am so happy that baby Mac is going to be a big brother! You and your husband deserve this blessing, congrats!

Jessica said...

Ok... I am so out of the loop... I had to find this important bit of information from checking in on the blog... shame my huband (who I am sure is fully aware you are having a girl). Congratulations you guys! I am so glad things are going well and what a stud... a baby monitor... you have a great man my dear! Yay for PINK!!!

Anonymous said...

congrats on the new pregnancy I hope all goes well for you I have been folling your blog for awhile and I am very happy to find that your family is growing. Big brother Mac I am sure has been taking care of this little one up in heaven telling her how wonderful her parents are and what a wonderful life she is going to have with you!!!

Anonymous said...

You'll have to turn your belly into a pumpkin this time!!!

MeKell and Aaron said...

Hey it was so good to see you guys last night. I'm so excited for you guys and your little girl. We need to get together sometime before the school year gets crazy again! ;-)

Colin and Ranie said...

That is so awesome you have that monitor. Josh is truly an amazing husband. You are a very thoughtful person Cali. Even from the moment you told me you were pregnant you have been so sweet, gentle and sensitive with me. For Heavens sake you even apologized! Goodness girl. We couldn't be any happier for you! Your strength and kindness never ceases to amaze me. Love you! Enjoy those little kicks. You are deeply blessed!