Sunday, October 11, 2009

Major Update!

Wow. I don't even know where to start. Let me just apologize first for all of you that still check my blog- I am so sorry that I haven't updated for almost 2 months! Let me start with what is new and we'll just go from there...

First of all- I had to kidnap this computer from Josh in order to even attempt to update my blog and that was after my Sister-in-law, Erin, mentioned that it had been a little too long...so Thank you Erin! The reason being is that Josh is currently in his second to last semester of school! Yay!! He is always busy trying to stay caught up on all of his classes in between his main project- Math homework. So after both of us are home for the day, Josh gets priority on the computer. Understandable, I guess. :)

I am working full time still and have had a really crazy schedule. I got a new manager, the supervisor over the call center is only working part time now (which is really hard for me because she is one of my best friends and keeps me sane at work.) so I have been taking on a lot of her tasks as well, we just hired a new supervisor to cover her position so we've been working hard training him, and the others are in school so I have been trying to work the hours needed to fill in the gaps.

Now on to the good stuff...How am I doing emotionally and pregnant wise?

I am 30 weeks and 5 days pregnant... and loving every minute of it. I haven't retained water like I did last time, I don't sleep at all but am managing still, haven't had any contractions or suspicious activity and my precious baby girl moves on a consistent schedule- probably to keep me from going crazy.
Emotionally... I would say that I am doing well. I doubted how easy/hard it would be. I have some really good days where I don't have a single worry in the world, but I have my other days where I am terrified the same thing will happen again and am up all night crying. I knew that the further I got along in the pregnancy the harder it would be and I do have some honestly hard days where I just want the Dr. to start me right now since I know she is alive and well. However, during those hard times I still am rational enough to know that I want her to grow and develop as much as she can so that she is healthy.
I still miss Mac. A LOT. My thoughts used to be- "How big would he be", "What would he look like", "What would we be doing tonight", etc. Now those thoughts have turned in to "Would he understand the idea of me having another baby?", "what would he think of all this new pink stuff", "Would he be nice to her when she was born or be jealous". It's kind of presented a new challenge that I have had to go through that I wasn't all that prepared for. He would be about 18 months when she is born and every day I just have to remind myself that he IS a good big brother, probably the best you could ask for. He is probably excited for us to have another baby- maybe a little jealous too that she gets to hang out down here with us for a little while. :)
For me though, they are two separate kids. She is not taking his place at all- not even in the slightest way. He will always be my first little baby that changed my life in a way that none of my other children can. But she will be the baby that I get to raise and be with my whole life. I can tell you though- I do have a hard time not comparing how different I have looked with each of them! Josh many times tells me how much cuter I am with her than I was with Mac because I retained so much water that I just kind of looked large, rather than pregnant. On the other hand- I am a LOT bigger in the stomach than I was with him. Check out these pictures....
The first one is really blurry- sorry. I thought it could show how big I was at least. All of these pictures are of my pregnancy with Mac. So the first one was taken on 4/6 the second on 5/4 (I'll let you do the math since he was born on June 27) and the last one is about 10 days before I had Mac.



Now here is a picture of me taken today... It resembles the 10 days before my due date more than the other two!!



Baby girl stuff!


I am going crazy over pink, dresses, flowers, bows... and the best part if that Josh is a shopper, so he doesn't really stop me.
What are big brothers for? Hand-me-downs.



I saved all of Mac's stuff- I just couldn't let anything go, even down to the diapers and wipes. They sure have come in handy now! Josh and I went through all of the boxes together and sorted out what we could and couldn't use. I actually LOVED seeing everything again. I thought it would be hard but I went in to it thinking, "what can Mac share with his little sister".
Sneak Peak at her bedroom... Yes it's the corner. Ha. More pictures will come when we are completely finished. I am still working on the blinds and bedding.



Cravings!





These are some cravings I have had throughout my pregnancy. The two ongoing are pumpkin pie (good thing it's in season...or bad because it's not the healthiest choice) and Ice- whether it be crushed or cubed, I love it!
Ok well I am making a promise now that I will update my blog at least weekly now. Josh and I are going to work out a schedule so that I get some computer time. Maybe he can watch ESPN while I blog. :) But unfortunately he does need the computer now- Math assignment due at midnight and it's 10:30 but I have more to post so it will have to wait until tomorrow....

34 comments:

The Durr's said...

Cali you are beautiful!! Congrats on your little girl!! You are gonna be a great mommy!! :) I'm glad you are doing well! Miss you lots!!

Chelsy said...

We were happy to see an update, we were wondering how you guys were doing. I guess Rand or Josh could pretend they are still friends and call each other once in a while! Good thing their wives, who never knew each other, have blogs to keep them up to date! Congratulations on everything, we are happy to see how it all is going!

Erin said...

Hurrah! I'm so glad you updated! Hearing about your pumpkin pie cravings yesterday was hilarious! Glad to hear in blog form how you're doing and feeling about everything. Mac IS the best big brother anyone could have and I'm sure he is preparing Oakland well for everything she's about to experience here on earth. You guys are awesome and we love you!

antigone1022 said...

thansk for updating...was a little worried and good to hear all is fine

HollySteffen said...

you look amazing! :)

Michelle (Three Men and a Lady) said...

Thanks for the update! Welcome back to blog land!

Parker's Paradise said...

YEA!! I've been checking in and I'm so glad that you are back to blogging again! I am so happy for you - little girls are so much fun! Still thinking of you and praying for you!!

april from dallas

The Maughans said...

IT'S ABOUT TIME!!

MOM

Colin and Ranie said...

Indeed, it is about time. I was so happy to see you finally posted. We need to talk! I need your help. Love you. Glad everything is going well. You are beautiful!

Anonymous said...

Finally!:-)

Anonymous said...

Guys...I am a huge follower of your blog. I wanted you to know that I just lost my baby at 10 weeks and although nothing compares to your loss it is the loss of a child, one that you wanted so badly. I want you to know how much your blog as helped me during this time. Shoot, it helped me before I went through any of this. So Mac's life has been very special even though he never got an earthly life with you. He is up there playing with my baby right now. Thank you both so much for your faith and sharing your experience. It means a lot and I am just a reader in Tennessee.

Meredith

bryce and kianna said...

I have loved cereal too! Her room is going to be so cute, the circles look so good. It feels like I haven't seen you in forever...your belly looks way cute!

Kyle and Megan Guest said...

Cali you look so cute!! What a fun time for you and how exciting! Can't wait to see pictures of her! Hang in there! XOXO Megan Poole

TAYBEL said...

I love your mom's comment. I second that! :)

MeKell and Aaron said...

I'm so glad someone else craved ice cream like I did. The hard thing was trying to justify eating it after I had the baby! You look great, glad everything is going well for you guys!

Anonymous said...

YAY!!! I am so glad that you are doing so well, I have been following your blog for awhile now. Stay strong and I look forward to seeing your beautiful baby girl.

p.s. you look great

Angela

Anonymous said...

Hey Josh, Cali, Mac and baby girl,
I came upon your blog my accident about a year ago and have been following once in awhile. Let me just say what an inspiration you all are. Congrats on your new addition to your family coming out to join you soon. Anyway I guess I also want to thank you because your blog has helped me through my pregnancy believe it or not. Anytime I was ever in doubt about our baby being OK I found no shame in going into the hospital to make sure he was OK. There was two times when things were a little scary. Reading your story has taught me to never take for granted the baby that we are so anxiously awaiting the arrival of any day now. I was 40 weeks yesterday and I am so thankful for the chance to be his Mom. Thanks for your inspiration and and example of strength.

Anonymous said...

Whoops I meant to say by accident.

Sarah said...

I too am excited about an update!You really are a lot better writer than you give yourself credit for. Just wanted you to know- you're one of my best friends too. :) I can't wait for sweet little thing to be born!

Tasha said...
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Tasha said...

I am glad everything is going well:) Good Luck and Congratulations! I think about you guys all the time, you were the best marriage and family teachers:)

ryansmom said...

Thinking of you and your precious baby Mac on the National pregnancy and infant loss remembrance day. (((Hugs)))

Matt and Stephanie said...

Im so happy for you!

Jessica said...

Hooray for an update... it's been awhile since I checked! First, you look adorable! I cannot believe you only have 10 weeks left! I am so glad to hear everything is going well for you! I have been asking Eric but he's not good at sharing any type of good information! Chicken in a Biscuit is one of my guilty pleasures... sad but true! It's a good thing your craving pumpkin pie... tis the season!

Jessica said...

I meant you're (you are).... seriously... grammar problems :)

nennermommy said...

Josh and Cali,

It was way nice meeting you today!

Jen Holt

MrsSmith said...

So happy for you Cali. I read earlier she is due on my birthday! =)
You look great!! Love ya!
Chloe Fullmer Smith.

Sara said...

I am so glad that this pregnancy is going to good. And I love the baby clothes.
So In previous post I told you how I had lost a baby and a tube with an ectopic pregnancy at 9 weeks. Well Derek and I had just hit our 2 year mark of trying and I had a ovarian cyst so I figured...I can't get pregnant this month so why try. I set up an appointment with my dr for infirtility and went about my business. Well my mthly bill time came and went and I thought that it was weird so I took a test and I am pregnant. I am 5 weeks and 5 days. I have my first appointment on Monday. I just wanted to let you know this to let you know that the Lord does love us and care for us. and He Loves you! Good luck with your last 9.5 weeks. and I cannot wait for future post!

The Maughans said...

...HELLO!!! tomorrow was 2 weeks ago!! Post again already!! Gosh!

Maines said...

Cali-

You do not know me. But a friend of my sisters sent me your link. Just last week I gave birth to my baby James who died 2 days prior to delivery. I was 37 weeks pregnant. Your blog has helped me know there is life after this and that the sun will shine again. I am not sure how to stay as positive as you have been. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. I know our Heavenly Father has a plan for us, and that he is taking care of my little James, but my arms ache for him. I appreciate you sharing your feelings and thoughts through your blog. If you have any advise as to how you dealt with this so positively please email me. Jaymieolsen@yahoo.com

Jaymie

Becker Family said...

Thank you for sharing your sweet son with us! ALthough we are strangers we share something in common. My sister just lost her first baby last week at 37 weeks pregnant. It has been so difficult for her and for her husband and for the rest of our family. We have found comfort in your blog. That is why I am writing. I am wondering if it would be ok to use some of your quotes and poems in something special I am making for my sister and her husband. I know there are copyright laws and I just wanted to get your permission if that's ok. I also turned to your family blog and I am so happy you are pregnant again! I wish you the best with your new little one
Beckee Becker!
rebecker3@gmail.com

Farnworth Family said...

I agree with your Mom, post more please!!! Btw you look GREAT!!! So excited too see this beautiful baby girl :)

Tara said...

I just came across your blog. Yall are just too cute! You so deserve this little girl. Congratulations!

I smiled when I saw your due date. I have 2 boys (12 and 14) and a 14 month old girl. I was also due Dec 17 2009 but lost that baby in June 11. I will have to make sure that I check your blog from time to time.

Mommason Hillary said...

oh great! Now I want some chicken in a bisket crackers! Welcome back - missed your sweet words... cute tummy.